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Hi! My name is Nur Syafiqah. Please read this carefully before reading my posts: "I do not need you to agree with whatever I write, as whatever that is written is my perspective on life, in general. If you do not agree, just take it as a pinch of salt" -Michelle Totally agree with this quote and if u feel offended or anything, I'm sorry but this is MY life. lalala ^^ ▲ ▲ ▲ Music for you? :) Tagboard Friends! 2/8 3/8 RS student council RS Symphonic Winds Adam Amalina Angel Andrea Andy Aqidah Azzahra Benjamin Chanel Chea Chee Chea Yee Damith Farah Hani Hakim Hani Iffa Jozoe Kah Seng Kai Li Kelvin Michelle Nadhirah Nazifah Norizwan Preethee Priscilla Razi Sabrina Shi Hui Siang Yee Taufiq Tricia Vianne Xiao Qin XinQian ZhiHui MediacorpTV, Joshua Ang, Brandi Cyrus, Felichia Chin, Nat Ho, Andrea Fonseka Links Credits Basecodes: lil.queens Layout: acryliclove |
Tuesday, January 31, 2012 Life is improving and i'm grateful for it ^^ Know why? Cos finally i feel a sense of satisfaction whenever i guide and teach my sister in her work. Usually i'll be damn lazy and leave my dad to do it. But now that i'm not doing anything (besides waiting for poly to start) , i guess helping her would be more benficial :) It's only the 2nd day and i hope it'll go well for the rest of the year. She is one fussy and giving attitude student and i'm an impatient and fierce teacher. So, our world will never be peaceful lalala~ Oh and talking about poly, YES, I've chosen poly. I'm still unsure of whether it's the right path but i guess it's a little too late to have any regrets now. I have to make sure I get into a local uni by hook or by crook! Let me sum up for u what i've been feeling... JC VS POLY JC Why i want to go: I've not decided which direction i want to go... There's no "OMG!! I WANT TO BE THIS _____" feeling in my heart or mind at all. No passion but only interests :/ So going there would definitely and hopefully instill that feeling in me. Plus, i've somewhat been bragging (i'm just saying but saying too much is considered bragging right?) about going to a JC ever since i finish PSLE and all my auntie/uncles/cousins/friends/family are like pressurising me. They will always go "So which JC?" and i'll feel so guilty and ashamed... :( Shouldn't have bragged....... Plus, on my maternal side, no one has ever been to a JC and they are all pinning hopes one me (cos i scored the top in PSLE) and i don't wanna disappoint them... Why i don't want to go: Thanks to my shitty Olvl result, i can only go to the bottom places JC and if I can't manage my Olvl well, then how am i supposed to manage my Alvl better? I really don't want to score like my Olvl standard.. Really like shit. What if I don't do well for my Alvl? Is it worth it going through pain without getting anything in return? NO. I can't gurantee that i'll get into a good Uni through Innova or Yishun.. POLY Why i want to go: The course is interesting! And i like kids! It is linked to Wheelock University which is a plus point. Poly would not be as tense as JC and i can gurantee myself a diploma no matter what happens :) Plus i'm not confident in pulling through Alvl in Yishun JC (though i know many people who graduate from there and have a successful career). Why i don't want to go: Like i've said earlier, I've not decided which direction i want to go... I may like kids but i may not like it when i start teaching them. I mean, i like looking and staring at their cuteness but i've never actually mix with them. What if i can't get along well? Or what if i can't control them? Furthermore, poly is 3years and only 20% of the cohort get into Uni. SO UNFAIR! and so bloody hard! Shit the education system man :( I'm not sure whether i can get into that category... TO SUMMARISE EVERYTHING! Hey it's too late for regrets not cos i've officially turned down Yishun JC. I have to stand up and look forward. I must not make a decision by what others will think of me. I have to make a decision based on my abilities and confidence level. Even though it has always been a dream path to go to JC, i have redeemed to my fate of not being good enough for it. IT'S OKAY. It's not about JC/Poly but rather about getting into uni and getting a stable job in the future. Remember, everything is for my future, my kids, my family. Hopefully remembering that might pull me through the worse days in poly. Omg, looking back at what i wrote, such irony that i wrote so long for 'why i want to go jc' but chose poly instead xD I'm trusting my instincts about poly and i hope it won't fail me halfway though poly life! Though i'm scared for it :( I'm up for new environment learning, making more and new friends but i'm worried for the challenges I may face. Yikes! Alright, i gtg now to nua in bed and txt my ge ^^ ALL THE BEST 1995 BABIES!! (and why am i so hyper again) Labels: Jc vs Poly Thank you for reading :)7:49 AM |
